Love Never Ends

To Addie

Life goes on, we can't stop it, hold on to it, folded it, put it in a drawer box room closet...

And so, Adelaide grew to be one and she is so beautiful musical and has two teeth. 

We bought her a present and a sweet little card. A happy day as life keeps moving,  a day that brought me to the life that once was -just memories.

love I can't hold either, it goes as life goes and grows as life grows. As a matter of fact life ends yet love never does. 

So, Happy Birthday Addie, my love to you. It will grow with you and go where you go -always.

Grandma Gg

Mercy & The Grey

In my despair I cry to You...

Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ who according to His great mercy has caused us to be born again to a living hope...

Life is never without some kind of black that squeezes your chest into a cry for help. 
I've cried in desperation many times...
It was mercy that rescued  me once from wolves eating my soul and it is mercy that allows others still to prowl with gnashing fangs. 
My cries of old and now reminded me of Ottway (Liam Neeson) in the movie "The Grey". His desperate plea to God brought no happy ending. 
So I wondered if mercy depends on the way we cry, the words we utter, our broken hearts, our deepest pain or faith or loudest prayers.
No black and white answer for my questions -maybe some are true, maybe all, part me but ultimately God, His good pleasure, His knowing it all. 
It was a no hope sad movie ending, one lone man against a pack of wolves facing certain death. 

As for me, weather my present pleas go answered or not, the monsters devouring my soul were killed years back -God in His mercy answered the most important cry of my life (being no better than Ottway) and evil will never ever get me...

In Your Absence

To James
Far and away...
I wanted to let you know that even though absent you are always with me. 
Since you left, life has continue to flow like a river, sometimes steady and slow, sometimes fast and fun. Others fast and treacherous, dangerous, big or little developing lovely turns, shallow crystalline creeks that can turn deep dark in a moment.
Ever changing moving and flowing...
Marriages, new births, old birthdays, travels, new homes, joys and sorrows, welcomes and farewells, graduations, projects and the routine of life with its ups and downs -like the river I told you about. 
I wish you had been here for all or some...but somehow you were.

Maybe one day we will tell you all about it here at home or much better there in eternity where never again my heart will ache for my absent son. 

Waiting for you...

1 Corinthians 13 With Blue Eyes...

1 Corinthians 13 With Blue Eyes...

Love is patient, love is kind and is not jealous; love does not brag and is not arrogant,does not act unbecomingly; it does not seek its own, is not provoked, does not take into account a wrong suffered, does not rejoice in unrighteousness, but rejoices with the truth; bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things 

Love never fails...

I met this love many years ago in the loneliness of my bedroom -it rescued my soul from despair and hopelessness for all eternity. Then years and years later, at the end of my broken road, I met this verses again one cold November night: they had taken the form of a man with blue eyes and all smiles -a lifetime waiting for his soul mate.

This time around I married him.

At the end of the day no matter the kind of day, I know he will be there just as he did the first day - I look into those twinkling constant letters disguise in blue and I'm happy happy happy.

You looking at me...

A Versión of a Song or a Song with a Version

1936 song Pennies from Heaven has become my paraphrase for James 1:17. 

The cute tune and jazzy tempo clicked somewhere in my musical soul and gave the verse a happy smile.

"Every good and perfect gift is from above coming down from the Father of lights, with whom there is no variation or shifting shadow"

Or...

Every time it rains, it rains pennies from heaven 

Don't you know each cloud contains pennies from heaven

You'll find your fortunes falling all over town

Be sure that your umbrella it's upside down

Trade them for a package of sunshine and flowers 

If you want the things you love, you must have showers

So, when you hear it thunder, don't run under a tree

There'll be pennies from heaven for you and me

And, as life turns this way and that, dark, confusing, ominous or happy, I hear James with the tune...

When it rains,  lift my hands as the upside down umbrella

receive my Fathers blessings, 

Ever more than pennies...

You and me :) ta da